Date:	2004-12-05 02:42
Subject:	dumb quiz
Security:	Public
Mood:	awake
Music:	Fat Boy Slim- Right here, right now

You should be dating a Pisces.
19 February - 20 March
Your mate is loving and caring, trusting and
hospitable, and romantic. Though he/she can be
self-pitying, temperamental or dependent, the
fishes are quite romantic in bed.


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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I didn't say self-pitying, temperamental or dependent... I dunno If I could deal with dependency. Like extreme dependency. Like, clingy dependency. Like suffocating, smothering dependency. Oh well, at least they're loving and caring and trusting and hospitable and romantic. Though my bf isn't a Pisces :-p And he's all of the GOOD things

Which Sin Are You?
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
You are...	Not a sin
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Date:	2004-11-29 16:45
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed, and a touch of pissed
Music:	Coldplay-- Rush of blood to the head

I've recently remembered just why I was depressed for several years of my life. It's because life sucks. It just does. And the worst part about it is that not every aspect of life sucks. So you have this WONDERFUL (note sarcasm) contrast of the swamp that is part of your life, and the pretty clouds hovering over it. It's like both parts mock eachother. Just like Africa for anti-Americanism and militant Islam, such a body is a breeding ground for self-loathing. You hate every part of yourself even though every part is defending itself. Talk about extreme split personality, hahahaa. I'm not insane, but I probably have the potential to go overboard. Yeay! So let's examine why I'm such a horrible person, ok? We'll leave out the physical and emotional flaws, since if we included them, this post would turn into a freaking textbook. So what the hell is WRONG with me? Why is it that I'm just the sucker that people seem to dump, to hate, to stab in the back, etc? This entry is turning into some really self-pitying shit, so I'll try to end it. There's flaw #1, sensitivity. Yep, I value how much people like me. And it doesn't seem like much. #2, I never know what I freaking do or say that is so offensive that some people can be so hostile towards me. But then again, I try to be an accepting and forgiving person. Grudges only chew away at any joy in life. Basically this entire entry translates to WTF? Why does life suck so bad, and why do I suck so bad at life? I have more to explore about me, but that's going to be done with Amy as soon as I can freaking talk to her.
God I'm so upset. And no, sleeping on it didn't help, because I didn't get much sleep anyway.
Just remember, you're reading the journal of a terrible person. Thanks to a kid from highschool I didn't even like much, my ex's friend, and a friend from high school that i haven't talked to since like graduation for trying to keep my spirits up with regards to certain issues.

Date:	2004-11-28 12:26
Subject:	Been a long time
Security:	Public
Mood:	rejuvenated
Music:	only that in my mind

It's been a long time since I wrote in this. I started to at home but then the computer more or less froze. Actually it was weird because it wasn't really the computer that froze, but the mouse and keyboard just stopped working. They're the new wireless type mouse and keyboard.  So I saw Chris last weekend (around the 21st I guess it was) and stayed with him friday and saturday, and then on sunday drove back to Sandusky, where I spent my thanksgiving break till friday night, when I headed to Columbus.  Btw, do I have like a serious problem speaking or something? Is it hard to know what I mean when i'm talkin to someone? I guess I must be just a really confusing person.

So monday was spent hanging out with Eric. A little awkward, but we had fun overall. We rented Lock Stock and Two Smoking barrels (so I finally got to finish watching it, yeay!!) and Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. What a freaking awesome movie. I love it so incredibly much. I would love to watch it right now...and this is why i need to buy it.  I got home really late, but still got to talk to Chris. yeay!! I want to see him even more than Eternal Sunshine again ;)

So Tuesday I went to LRA. That was awesome. I got to visit with almost everyone (except, sadly, Ms Sparks Roberts) Dr Stone also made me take a quiz in AP US, but I know I got at least one question right!!

 I had planned to go again on Wednesday, but I was too tired to get up so early and I also remembered I had some errands to do, aka I HAD to go to the bank so I wouldn't be poor anymore. So now i have a good chunk of change in my checking account (read: gas money). So I got all that done, and then I hung out with Carly. We went to go see the Incredibles, then we got ice cream while we went back to my place to watch The Last Supper, which she BOUGHT FOR ME!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!! That movie is so funny.  Then I had to drive her home around 11 or something, or was it 12? and then I came back and, surprise, watched eternal sunshine again. I saw that movie 3 times in the spanse of the break, and it wasn't nearly enough. I convinced Chris to call me too, who got to talk to Carly for most of the time, as I was driving her back, and then left me only a few minutes after talking to me :(

Thursday was thanksgiving!!! Hope y'all had a good one. I was glad to see all my family, and the food was really good. Watched Indy Jones and part of Jurassic Park, watched some whose line, and was basically worthless the entire day. I watched Eternal Sunshine again with John and Michael, who both agreed it was very good. Woot!

Friday, I bummed around almost the entire day. Watched Mission Impossible 1, and some Law &Order (not SVU) and I'm thinking I'll start watching that one regularly too.  Then I drove to Cowlumbus, got some dinner at Conti's and came home to Dorn's apt. They have a new cat named Pannos, which is latin for Rags. Don't you hate people who speak languages? They always think it's so hip to refer to almost everything in their "new, rad  language" instead of "boring old english" Bah. All those people can just suck my dick. :-p  We watched Mean Girls, Shrek 2, and some other move with my mom that I can't remember right now. Ooooooohhhh it was Aladdin. Really we should've watched Mean Girls or Shrek 2 first since my mom has seen Aladdin and not the others.

Saturday was shopping spree day. Seriously hardcore shopping. I got some awesome clothes though :) I know one of them I can't wait to show my darling boyfwiend  ;) Now if only I could get all these clothes out of Dona's trunk.... but I dunno where the hell the wench is. Unfortunately a lot of the clothes are summery :( So I can't even like wear them till spring or whateva without freezing my buns off, but they're so cute! And my mom got me some coats too. Then we had to rush back for me to get my hair done which ended up taking FIVE FREAKING HOURS. Theresa, the hairdresser, is one of the coolest ladies I've ever met, and she's an awesome hairdresser. Why did it take so long you ask? Because my hair was black, and she thought a chocolate brown would look good on me so I was like "ok!" and we switched my hair color. Only problem is that black is really hard to remove. She ended up having to bleach parts of my hair. This part alone took like 4 hours. Then dying brown and actually cutting it took the rest of the time. I was amazed she spent so much time on my hair, and I think it was shampoooed and conditioned like a million times, hahahah. I had some Wendys for lunch, and Dorn and I ordered some Domino's Pizza after I had to listen to her tell me that I should love my appearance, blah blah blah, because I was so pretty, etc etc. lol and then she was kinda pissed at me since I was just like, whateva I'm ugly. We watched Chronicles of Riddick, pretty cool flick, and Stepford Wives, which was really freakin weird. Now i'm not a feminazi or anything as most of y'all know, but the guys in that movie were dbags. Plain and simple. Well, 'cept Matthew Broderick, cuz he always rocks. As does Chris Walken. I do think Nicole Kidman's acting skill is improving a bit, as my sister suggested, but I still don't like her.

Now I haven't done barely ANY work at ALL this ENTIRE break, so I really am going to have to work hard in the upcoming 2 weeks I have left, so don't expect to see me online much, at least until like 9 or something. I got 2 notecards for my history paper (wow so much) and I did my poetry homework for this week. I still have to put my anthology together and write the poem I still haven't for Praise/Prayer and I have to schedule a meeting with my prof, who STILL has not emailed me back about meeting with me. Does she like never check her email?? And even though i do have this work, I really really do want to see Chris again before the time around New Years, because that's so freaking far away. And I miss him :(

So wish me luck for getting everything done, and even more luck for getting it all done, even though it will be impossible to get to MD I know, because even if I do get extra time for a weekend, it will be spent at Amy's holiday party,  since I haven't seen her in like FOREVER. So keep your fingers crossed for me, s'il vous plait!! :)

Date:	2004-11-16 11:14
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	flirty
Music:	Red Hot Chili Peppers- Under the Bridge

So despite REEEEEEEEEALLY wanting to sleep this morning, I did get up and go to calc. Bad decision. I got my quiz back, only one answer was right, as expected, and no partial credit on any of the 3 I got wrong.  On the way back to my dorm I stopped by my history prof's office and said I was sorry for missing class and that I was sick. I'm not entirely sure if I was believed, but with him, you can never tell what he's thinking, and he did inquire about my health today, which has significantly improved. Thanks for the coughdrops Jill! Luckily I've never missed his class before, so it's not like a common occurence as in Calc, and my prof there basically didn't even hear me say I was sick haha. Oh well, I don't really care. I just can't wait for this semester to be over so I can get the hell out of that class.

So the plan of action today is to finish the John Knox memoir book, which is actually really good, and then if I have time left over, I'm either doing calc or doing research. Hopefully I'll go for the research, and knowing me, I probably won't really do much of either, but it will probably be the research. Oh, and I'm also so taking a nap after lunch, and I'm praying they have the corn dog nuggets there today.

I've become like re-addicted to http://www.thefacebook.com. Y'all who can should join :-p Amy, this means you, and actually I think, Chris, you can too... you're technically still enrolled right? :-P Hehehe *snuggles both of yas*

I miss Chris :( Ever notice how time seems to go even more SLOWLY when there's less of it to be ENGULFED?? mmm munch munch munch. I've decided I'm going to steal him, and he can live under my desk. Now that I look at that sentence, I realize how perfect that is, as far as the physical situation...since I'm almost always at my desk.  Hahahaha. I'm such a perv. So yea, Chris needs to come and live under my desk.

Date:	2004-11-15 13:08
Subject:	Bad mixed with good
Security:	Public
Mood:	but really happy
Music:	CCR- Have you ever seen the Rain?

So thursday was fun...I basically did nothing except go to the post office and look forward to friday. I also took my philosophy exam and another calc quiz. I definitely failed that calc quiz. At least I finished my test edit though.
This weekend was awesome. Friday I headed up to Sara's. We were supposed to go to her friend's concert but I got stuck in the most atrocious DC traffic so I was something like 2 hours late. As it happens she and I pretty much just drove around before we headed to pick up Chris. Picking him up ended up to be quite an adventure. Connie called me, and we'd decided to actually go in the building to wait for him, which was fun and exciting. This awesome hippy guy with this amazing beard let us in. He smokes a lot though. He went out twice to have a cigarette like within half-an-hour. We talked to him for a bit, and we talked to some of the other guys that worked there, and a delivery boy. They were all fuzzy good fun. Finally Chris got off work at about 9:30 and I got to glomp him, yeay! We convinced Sara's mom to let her go out to eat with us, and Chris bought surf-n-turf for sara and I to split (awwww) and I got this huge ass piece of chocolate pie. The meal ended up being really expensive ( :( poor Chris) and for some reason the tip was included, so he was getting worked up about that ;) I'm just exaggerating tho. It was funny however, because while we waited for all of 1 minute Chris looked like a major pimp with one girl on each leg sitting down. You go Chris. We dropped off Sara and went home.
Saturday was wild. I met a bunch of new people from Legends that were awesome. It's amazing how many uber cool people you can find in one place. It was Scott's birthday, so we all planned to go to see Team America, which was only showing at Arundel Mills, a good 40 min drive or so, so basically as soon as we woke up we had to head out, as we all decided on the plan of action at oh, 10 or something, and the movie started at noon. We ended up being late, but the movie was good, and the company was better. We had to separate ourselves even though I never remember any people coming back to take their seats during the movie, and so we got to have some double-date sorta fun. We then went back to legends, and I met a crapload of people. Then a bunch of us went to Ruby Tuesdays, and we hung out at Legends till we went to see Scott's play, which wasn't bad. All of us then headed back to Sara's to watch Kill Bill, and eat pizza bites and grapes. Woohoo! I pissed off Sara's mom by being out late dropping off Chris (I feel so bad about that) :(
Sun, Chris, Sara, and I went to the Nautilus diner for breakfast, which wasn't bad, and then we dumped him off at work. Damn the need to work :( So sara and I went to Trader Joe's to get groceries for her vegan recipes, and we had Scott pick up sweetener and strawberries which weren't at trader joe's. We then made the DELICIOUS Apple Fantasy.... which looked like sliced up cat brains and tasted like sweet-n-low liquid sweetener. Sara spiced it up with some cinnamon, apple butter, and ketchup and fed some of it to Scott. The fruit pizza was better though. Mmmm Kiwis. I want some kiwis. Then we watched some boiling point, and I went to take a nap. Scott and I left at 6, and I headed home...only a bit of traffic this time, and I still got back at 10. I also got gas for 1.88! woo! Even though had I waited about an hour, I could've gotten it for 1.79. This trip was expensive, considering I used another tank of gas in Baltimore during the weekend. Damn being the only one with a car. I also bought Chris a phone card. And I ended up buying all the movie tickets, and breakfast on sunday (at least for Chris). But it could've been worse, as Chris spent like a butt-ton of money on me. For the life of me, I will never know why he puts up with me.
So this morning I felt like absolute poo, and thus, stayed home from all my classes, and am even not going to my creative writing class. My head feels like a balloon, so I can hardly imagine trying to think. I am going to try to work today, and I have to get US notes from someone, so I'll have to talk to Leila sometime today. On a bonus, a couple of people need rides to Baltimore area, so maybe they can pay my gas this time, hahahah. Thanksgiving is coming up so soon, yeay!! Amy, I'm looking forward to seeing you lover ;)

( sappiness... )

Date:	2004-11-10 12:52
Subject:	so yea...
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	B.B King-- The Letter

About this live journal thing...it is hard to keep up! I'm going to have to start doing every other day i think, or I'll go nuts. So yea, today is looking busy. Later I'm going to go to the post office with Abri to mail a letter to my Gram, and i might as well drop off the hospital stuff instead of taking it directly to them fri. And I get to check my mail! Woo! Should I be expecting anything from friends? :-p So my launchcast radio is giving me crap today, again. Blah.
I got my calc test back today. D....64. Luckily she's finally decreasing her nazism and is allowing for a kind of test edit extra credit, of which i will take advantage, which can bring my grade up to a 76, yeay! What's pathetic is my grade was ABOVE the avg of the class, which I believe was a 63, or was it a 60? The woman is just a nutjob. But then after I do that, I'm going to do more calc, or maybe I'll do philosophy and then calc. I have to work on the translations for Philosophy so I can do well on the exam tomorrow, and basically I just need some practice, so I'm going to do the exercises in our "book." Then I have to teach myself the two chapters on the calc quiz tonight and tomorrow, and take the calc quiz and phil exam tomorrow sometime. So i'm busy busy with that, and on top of that I REALLY want to start my research, at least get the bibliography cards done, and print out the cartoons I want to use. I'd also like to get my other poem written, even though my Stonehenge one is going down the shitter. I just am having so much trouble writing it, and I think my Pirate one sucks too, kinda. I'm also having a lot of trouble rewriting my poker one-- not only fleshing it out more, but also making it have some point in its sad existence, and making it more like poetry than just good prose. I need to take a prose class to get all that outta me. I may just scrap the poem entirely. Who knows...
I feel bad for not reading too, so I was going to start that up again, and I may, because lord knows I'm going to need something that relaxes me (though the net does that, however, that doesn't stimulate my intelligence much :-P). I think I should read poetry! Oh wait, that's still homework. Sigh. I like the pressure to do shit though, it brings me back to last year which was so fun because I couldn't slack my ass off like I've been doing for the past month. It makes me feel like I had some manner of worth. I'm getting really fat too, so I need to motivate myself to at least do situps in my room or something, and I need to start practicing bagpipe! I haven't even picked it up in like a MONTH! I should beat myself with my chanter reed
Ok that's enough ranting I spose. (deleted because it was so sappy). Somehow I've reached that awesome balance of being in the clouds and being down to earth. I'm just a bit more in the clouds usually, while slacking on work ;) But next semester will not give me as much opportunity to do that, so I'm really looking forward to winter term. i miss humping connie's leg too. She's always so busy!!!
Amy, if you read this before I get a chance to talk to you, I have something to tell you
Mwah to all my lovers! (Esp you three- Amy, Chris and Sara ;) )

Date:	2004-11-09 17:02
Subject:	Yeay!
Security:	Public
Mood:	happy
Music:	AC/DC-- Shook me All Night Long

So I'm pretty proud of myself! Granted I didn't go to calculus, but I did not feel very well at all this morning. However, I did get the motivation (thanks Jill!) to go to the library at last and get the books for my paper. I intend to start researching tonight! I've also been working on English (creative writing) so I've actually done work today! And will continue to work! Well, at least a bit, I shouldn't be too ambitious, right? Hehehee
I'm feelin pretty good in general too. I'm still happy carried over from last night, after reading someone that def warmed my ice-queen heart :D. Plus I've been havin fun conversations with my friend Amanda, which is always good fun. I miss Amy though, she seems to always be so busy, and I just can't wait to see her again :). I'm missin my bro too, and I'm not gonna get to see Corn for like, ever since she's always going up to canuckia from now on ;) Damn canucks. At least he's cool and is always sending me good music :-D. Just a few more days till fri!!! I'm so excited :) Now if I could just convince myself to work on Philosophy and especially Calc so I'm ready for those damn quizzes, all would be good.
Maybe more later!

Date:	2004-11-08 20:38
Subject:	I'm becoming an addict...
Security:	Public
Mood:	amused
Music:	Coldplay-- The Scientist

So I told myself I was going to do some homework tonight, but nope that didn't happen. I did get the notecards I'm gonna need for my research though, and tomorrow I'm going to the library to get the books I need. Of course law&order is on tomorrow! So I HAVE to watch that. It's been so long. I also have another exam/quiz coming up in Philosophy soon, on Wed it starts and have till Fri to take it. Unless he changes it to this weekend, which I hope he doesn't do, since I'm going to be in Towson. I am gonna work on English some more though, try to get that outta the way. Yeay. I might be having some calc quiz coming up, but I'm none too sure about it. I'm doomed to failure anyway. So that's all that, and oh boy am I looking forward to thanksgiving. I guess my mom is psycho-ing out, surprise surprise. This weekend is all planned out though I guess, Chris and Sara figured out everything I hope. If they didn't well....punishment will be swift. I think I'm going to paste that conversation with my brother because it's so damn funny. I may even add in the George Bush joke he stuck in there, that I didn't get originally.

I had a cool conversation with my friend today about politics and life in general. It makes me think of me. I used to say almost the exact same things, well almost anyway. My cynicism about life used to be the same. For the life of me I don't understand why I have so much hope and faith in life. I wonder why I so ardently believe that life has meaning? That somehow it means something beyond superficialness? All I know is that's what I believe. Somewhere along the line I regained my idealism. It's too bad too-- I made a funny cynic. Maybe I'm just kind of lying to myself, hahaha. Oh well, at least I'm drinking hot chocolate out of my CSA mug with Davis, Lee, and Jackson looking at my lips as they get close to the rim. Simple pleasures for simple minds. My friend's problem is that she's just too damn smart. There's fuzzy goodness in life, it's just in the little things about which nobody bothers to think.

Here's that convo with my bro (his being BIG NIG is a joke btw us, if it bugs you, just don't read it):

BIG NIG : Q: What change is George Dubya making to Social Security?
BIG NIG : A: Influenza immunization shortages.
Me : Privatizing it further?
BIG NIG : get it?
Me : no! :(
Me : it doesn't make sense :(
BIG NIG : the flu will kill all the elderly, so the government wont have to pay them social security...
BIG NIG : get it now?
Me : hahahaha
Me : yea
Me : get my BUTT?!
BIG NIG : mom has been acting like a loon ever since she got back...what the hell did you do to her?
BIG NIG : she's all melodramatic and weepy and taking offense at everything
BIG NIG : in short, being a complete fucking loon
BIG NIG : ever since she got back
Me : dude, she was giving me a hard time like the whole weekend
Me : about eating too much, and being fat, etc
Me : (line deleted)
Me : and i was liek THANKS mom
Me : i love having my flaws pointed out
BIG NIG : yea...mom has issues
Me : so then she got all victimized
BIG NIG : yep, she's been a big victim since she got back...she's doing all that stupid crying
BIG NIG : boo hoo hoo, boo hoo hoo
Me : good god, she's crying?
BIG NIG : she cried because i took her matches out of her drawer
Me : LMFAO
Me : LMFAO
BIG NIG : she's crying about anything
Me : good lord
Me : i almost feel bad for laughing
BIG NIG : i told her, "Mom you came home a day early without calling me, that is why there are dishes in the sink; that is why i took the matches from the drawer." Mom answered with "BOo hoo hoo hoo."
Me : the worst part was she bitched to dad, who called me up and bitched at me when I was already upset enough
BIG NIG : yea
BIG NIG : mom is fucking crazy
Me : LMFAO
BIG NIG : she is so fucking bored with her life; she can only make it interesting if she convinces herself that everyone hates her
Me : lol exactly
Me : she should go join some clubs
BIG NIG : ooooh "I just wish people could be more decent to me oooh boo hoo hoo"
BIG NIG : JOhn took my matches oh boo hoo hoo
BIG NIG : yesterday, when she was crying, i got so sick of it i wanted to tell her to shut the fuck up and act like an adult
Me : LMFAO
Me : try to tell her that she's a psycho
Me : and if she insults people
Me : they're gonna get offended
Me : or hurt
Me : or both
BIG NIG : i know she was mad at you, but she was being all pissy with me like my name was Jessica, then she went all over the house inspecting it. anything she found that was out of place she would point it out and say "John, would you like to explain why you felt it necessary...blah blah blah." so she went about--with purpose--to find something to make her angry, then when i got angry about it--she cried more
BIG NIG : i wanted to shoot myself--or her
Me : LMFAO
BIG NIG : but the real kicker was this morning when she was crying for about a half/hour because i took her fucking matches
Me : LMFAO
Me : well john
Me : you shouldn't borrow people's matches without asking
Me : you should've expected it
BIG NIG : i said" mom, think about what you are doing, you are crying hysterically about a matchbook"---she got mad and insisted it wasnt the point--I asked her "What is the point" well-it turns out that the point was that Im a no-good rotten bastard
Me : LMFAO
Me : because clearly you are
Me : for taking a matchbook
BIG NIG : but i couldnt believe how she took it all personally
BIG NIG : i said "MOM you were out of town...you came back early...what the fuck..."
BIG NIG : of course, she wouldnt let me do the dishes, because then she wouldnt be able to be angry and all pissy
BIG NIG : I kinda hate her right now
Me : lol
Me : yea of course not
Me : that would make too much sense
BIG NIG : i gotta study ill be on
Me : kk
Me : cya kid

Date:	2004-11-07 19:34
Subject:	Well...
Security:	Public
Mood:	dorky
Music:	Jazz!

Well today I mostly laid on my bed messing around on the computer. Either doing English, doing nothing, listening to music, or doing this thing. I even looked at Renaissance costumes for a while. I'm really contemplating getting like, maybe 2 or even 3. I really want a nun one, and a barwench. I think a pirate might be really cool to do though. I do have a rapier after all. (It's a CSA rapier, but whateva). I ate one of the tv dinners that my dad bought me on our grocery shopping spree. It wasn't very good. I tried to eat all of it since I can't like, put beef down the sink or anything, but yea that didn't work out. So I may be evil and throw it away in the bathroom trash, but most likely i'll just throw it away and tie up the bag and empty it asap tomorrow (though I can't in the morning-- laundry). I may let myself eat some junk food to make it up to myself or something ;) This lemonade is really good though. It's weird that I like Light Minute Maid better than regular.I did get a significant amount of English done. I have to write an ode which is next to impossible. I can't find anything inane on which to write an ode! I'm kinda stuck. I can't write a prayer poem because I personally don't believe in praying, and especially don't believe in ranting at God. I'd rather rant at the ranters I guess :-P Hopefully I can get inspiration at midnight, which happens every now and then. Till then I guess I'll play some computer games, which I haven't done in a while. Surfing the internet can entertain me for only so long after all. :-D I wish there were like, convertible smiley thingies on this. Plus Mozilla has been giving me a bunch of shit lately. So has Yahoo Launchcast. Bah. Well ok. I'm done babbling. I do it way too often anyway. I'm counting down the days...

Date:	2004-11-07 14:24
Subject:	First entry
Security:	Public
Mood:	mellow
Music:	Ray Charles-- You Don't Know Me

So yea... I've created a Livejournal. I guess it was bound to happen. I already got sucked into the facebook.com craze at my school. I haven't decided whether or not I'm going to show this to any of my friends though. I probably will. I have several friends with one. Thanks for encouraging me, Sara.
I guess what finally made me want to make one was that my day today was just hell. My mom really infuriates me. No flaw goes unnoticed, and she makes sure to point them out each time they present themselves. I already know I suck at life. So it goes...
My poor dad is going to have to listen to her bitch the entire way back to OH. It's hard to feel really bad for him at the moment though, since he just called and bitched at me on her behalf. This is one thing I hate about journals, it's so easy to just dive right into the negative crap and come off sounding like a whiny little bitch. Well what can I say, I am one :-P

But yea other than that, my weekend was good. I'm already missing my Pa. I feel kinda bad for spending so much of his money this weekend :-P but at least I have a bunch of new goodies to eat and a lot of tasty beverages. And I got some new books too. HP Lovecraft (still trying to find someone that's read any to see if this book i got is good), John Steinbeck (my favorite author), and Kurt Vonnegut (a blooming fan am I). I'm getting closer to completing my John Steinbeck collection (yeay!) and I was tempted to get this JM Coetzee book (my second favorite author) but I couldn't remember if I had gotten the Michael K one or not. Come to think of it, I don't think I did, so I really should have picked it up. Oh well :-P.

I really need to start on my research paper, so I told Jill to threaten me with death if I didn't get my ass over to the library to get the books I need. I also have to search for a book on Thomas Nast since one didn't show up in my computer search of our library. I'm hoping that if our library really doesn't have any books on him that my prof will just let me use a biographical website or something.

I'm back to being my usual happy/ content Jessie. I went with Jill to the marketplace and got some chocolate milk, an apple, and a piece of coffee-cake and just kind of relaxed. It helped to get out of the room instead of just holing up and never coming out for the day. I may eat some of the tv dinner things i just got though, see how they are, for dinner.

I'm going to do some English homework today, and maybe finally motivate myself to write out all the CDs I want to get for when I'm in Sandusky where there's a cheap record store, and maybe all the books I want to get too ;) I love making lists. I'm eagerly awaiting this Friday, and I'm hoping my sore throat will go away by then. But for now, English and Yahoo! launchcast radio (so nice)